Angels Rush In

I think there are so many things that we grieve and we don't realize it. We grieve the passage of our youth. We grieve the passage of people in our lives, the endings of friendships, the endings of our community or environment, the grief of selling our home, of having to leave our neighborhood and when we move into stages of our lives – there's so much more that we grieve. Grief is part of life. And I don't know that we realize how deep it runs in our system, and how paralyzing it can be.

Do we ever look at the landscape of loss?  So what is loss?  How do we face it? Many people do not face loss. Whatever method works for each of us, there are stages to it. And its timing is as individual as we are.

Yesterday I was talking to a friend who expressed her views regarding family members, I responded by talking about Angelic support and how they come to us during stages our grief. To lend support or like a friend to be there for us.  What follows is talking to The Universe, our Higher Self, God, Guru, or whatever name you use,  “Why did this happen?” “What am I supposed to do now?”

It’s natural and human to want reasons as to why things happen as they do. Sometimes we get a response and sometimes it’s many years before we can muddle through to achieve an answer.   

And then we encounter the monkey mind with, ‘I should have done this, I could have done this, why didn’t I do this?’

As our process continues, we encounter the Dark Night of the Soul. Mystics have written extensively on this topic. It’s something I know intimately.  It’s a paradox; the richest and most terrifying place to be. Here our attention to liturgy is so on point, that we become sacred language. We meditate into the small of the night. Our tears turn to salt.  Our breath is so gentle that it can barely be detected. We feel holiness through every fiber of our being. The passion of our love for the Omnipresence intensifies. We see all of creation even in the emptiness.

And then it all cracks.

You find no satisfaction in any of it.  In your vulnerability, all agendas have fallen away.  You grow still in your non-doing that your quietude deepens in proportion to your surrender. You feel like you initially were being held like a child and now you’re annihilated. 

And lastly, we go into forgiving reality. This is where acceptance arrives and moving on.

I don’t think we can ever be in the present until we process the grief and heaviness we all carry from our past. 

Many times I have felt someone else’s trauma.  Now I’ve come to understand that it may be miscalculated when there’s an element of grief that they never processed. They either ran from it because they didn’t have the courage or the tools to confront it or they were in a rush to get through it.  

Here at Earth School, the lessons we pass, fail, and repeat are equivalent to our capabilities and crucial for our soul’s evolution and the people we encounter. The question is do you remember you signed up for the course?

I’ve chosen this song because when I hear it, I never think of human romantic love in the traditional Western way; it’s much more poignant than that.

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